Dumb queer feelings about the ocean

I know we all joke and I call myself Shark Royalty and Mother of Sharks and I say that I’m an Ocean Witch but seriously, being in the ocean and by the ocean makes me so incredibly happy. 

I’m stressed out so much right now and I constantly feel nauseous and like there’s so much noise in my head, like i’m having constant sensory overload and my emotions are a mess and i’m desperate to be with Ren and Jen in person. 

But, being by the ocean, having my feet in the water makes everything feel like it’s okay- just for a little bit. Standing on rocks with bare feet and walking carefully, finding smooth rocks and tiny shells. The salt and the breeze. Everything just feels like home to me. It’s why I can’t go to the beach and not be in the water. Being in the waves, in the tide and having it pull me. There’s no way to describe how safe I feel. I feel so connected to the ocean and it helps me a lot. When I want people to go to the beach and ocean with me it’s a big deal to me bc it’s my home. When people can walk with me by the water and look for sea glass and rocks and shells and especially if they can go in the water with me and sway in the waves. It means a lot.