utara-north:

birbanhi:

– “IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY!!”
– “you arent mad at me right? Oh my god you are! IM SORRY”
– “is this my for me? Can I use this? Can I drink this? Can I-”
– “pls help me make this decision for me”
– “do what you please!!!” “What if that makes everyone mad at me”
-studying people intensely because you are afraid you might do something that will make them mad
– Saying something in a tone louder than usual and feeling like this is your last day alive
– low self stem
– feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted after expressing any sort of feeling and crying right after that
– when someone talks or does something in an attitude thats not usual from them and Knowing That It’s Your Fault
– “i dont deserve this why are you doing this for me”
– not knowing the difference between a joke, sarcasm, and passive aggressive speech
– unhealthily clinging to anyone who’s remotely nice to you
– not knowing what to say NEVER
– not knowing how to react to compliments, nice words, genuine care or anything like that and feeling incredibly sick at the thought of someone genuinely loving you
– Crying.
– having to explain every single movement and word you do and say to literally anyone
– being really good at lying and pretending as a survival strategy
– Not living, surviving.
– calculating and overthinking everything you do and say, the time you say it, how you say it, the expression you have when you say it, your voice tone…everything
– getting panic attacks over the tiniest things
– unhealthily clinging to fictional characters and shows
– lack of energy to do anything because you use a lot of effort in every single movement you do
– “im useless”
– when someone compliments you on something and you needing to be Perfect at it because then you dont have any reason to live
– intrusive thoughts
– Perfectionism
– Over sensitiveness
– “It’s my fault.”
– not knowing how to react about criticism
– Isolation
– getting startled when someone touches you
– being hyperaware of your surroundings and at the same time having no time and space perception
– believing everything everyone says
– Feeling like any day is your last day

Wow I… wow.