-Vee?
It’s confused, eyebrows pulling together faintly.
Names aren’t supposed to sound like one letter. Names are supposed to be longer, more complicated with the weight of one gender grounding them.
I can feel embarrassment and doubt swell up in me, drowning what little confidence clings to my bones. My mouth presses together tightly in a forced smile to keep the flood of apologies and explanations. To keep me from conceding and offering up my “real name” like a white flag.
Every introduction is a battle. Is it worth that confused look? Is it worth the weight of the word launched back at me as they parrot it back, as if there’s some mistake? Is it worth anything? The only reason I go through it all is because the four syllables are like a slap now, they sound too long, too fancy, too not me.
But I don’t even know who ‘me’ is.
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