I’m honestly really worried about my mental health. Lately all I want to do is just cry and scream and it’s like everything in my brain is too much and too loud. Like there are racing thoughts and also just too too much that I overload myself. I go into sensory overload way too easily and there’s just this awful pressure in my chest. Like the beginning of a panic attack just constantly suffocating me.
I’m suffering here in RI when I’m on vacation. And the thought of going back home to my apartment and work makes me want to throw up and cry. I have no idea what’s happening. I don’t know how I’m going to handle being back?
This pressure is just killing me, I feel like I can’t breathe and I just want everything in my brain to stop. I want to cry to just get it over with and I can’t.
I want to make friends on here and talk with people but I feel like I’m doing something wrong. I wish I was popular on here solely so ppl would care about me and talk to me and junk. Which is dumb, I’m dumb. But that suffocating feeling is growing rn.
All I want to do is sit with Ren and Jen and hide under like fifty blankets and talk about stuff I like and cry. It’s like my brain is rotting away. All i want to do is talk about Anders and my OCs and things. I want to draw but I can’t. Everything is so confusing and even writing this post out isn’t helping how it normally does when I write out my thoughts. Everything is too much and I just want it to stop. I just want to die sort of so I can stop feeling this way. I want to cry. I want the noise in my head to stop. I really need help. I need reassurance. I’m just not okay at all.
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